I'm starting to think I really need to get a life. I mean, really!?! Who spends an entire afternoon watching Fox News while poring over the Sunday inserts and researching online to find the best vacuum to buy for your buck? In the meantime, the dust bunnies are multiplying like, um...well, BUNNIES. I swear there's a time thief in my house and I have just majorly failed the Flyladies' method of housekeeping and organization... But I digress.
So hours later and still no vacuum. I cannot justify spending $400 for a Dyson. (even though I secretly covet one.) I currently have an Oreck which just seems to spit dust back out into the room, making my house the dustiest house ever. *sigh. (This is where I start beating myself up for being a defeated perfectionist.)
Anyways...another day has gone by and I haven't managed to accomplish a darned thing. What on earth is wrong with me? I have had headaches from hell and find myself paralyzed with social anxiety. I just cannot even get motivated to clean my house or go out shopping. Normally the month of September fills me we motivation and hope.
(okay...do ya think I could be depressed?) I mean...I am turning 45 the end of this month. I am feeling a little down about some little life changes. Maybe I need to start jogging. I'm past a "mid-life" crisis (cuz I doubt I'll live 'til 90) and I think I must be too young to start being "menopausal"... I just think I'm in a funk and I need to shake myself loose.
(and man, wouldn't jogging do that?)...now there's a visual.
4 comments:
Oh how I would love to bring home several vacuums and see what really works. Praying for God to give you some help to get through---I kind of know what it feels like.
I've been there. I hate it too. I think it's a pre-meno-pause thing. For me they are far and few between and don't last too long. For awhile they got closer together and lasted longer and became more severe. I'm older than you though. I think there is something to those M&M's and chocolate.
Hang in there Connie. You are such a great mom and do so many things right. Kathi
I'm sorry you are going through a funk. It stinks to go through them. It is weird how they can just hit you. What helps me the most is to open my Bible and read God's word. It really encourages me. Especially the Psalms. Also, just make a few plans to get out of the house helps too. It is weird to start having an empty nest and to start questioning our purpose in this world. But God is not through with us yet! There is a lot of exciting things out there. I pray that this will lift soon.
God bless you,
Sharon
It could be and probably is hormones. But also realize that you went through alot this summer with your boys in particular. It could be the release of lots of tension that was bottled up. I get migraines after really intense things happen in my life. And who says 45 is old. WE AREN'T OLD! Let's rejoice in our middle aged goodness with a bag of peanut m&m's and a beer ;)
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