I really don't even want to say it out loud but this is my online journal where I've been documenting happenings in our lives...so with that being said let me cut to the chase. Basically I got a phonecall from my doctor while we were in Ann Arbor yesterday. The message she left was asking me to call them. Hmmm...what would they want to talk to me about? Well, I did just have my yearly pelvic exam and a mammogram...go figure. I guessed that if all was well, they would have left a message telling me as much or better yet...sent me the postcard that states: EVERYTHING CHECKS OUT FINE. period. end of discussion.
Needless to say this message unnerved me just a tad. Okay, I freaked. I hyperventilated and had a slight panic attack and then I cried my eyes out. You see, it's just a little too close for comfort. Currently I have two very good friends going through the big C... well... need I say more?
So it was probably the longest night ever...a restless sleep with tossing and turning, sleepwalking, etc. I woke up at 6, packed Pat's lunch, went for my morning walk, had a cup of coffee, and watched the clock strike 9 before I could call. The nurse told me that there was a slight change in the density of my right breast and they wanted to repeat the mammo with an ultrasound. Okay...now what do I do? I told her I'd cancel my dentist appointment today, but apparently that wasn't needed since I have to wait until July 1st so they can do both tests simultaneously.
In the meantime, I figure I've got a week to pray like heck. I've already called my friend and had it put on the prayer line...not to mention the prayers of my kids and Pat. I called my mom and talked it over with her. I recalled her having a similar experience which proved to be nothing more than a reason to watch it closely...which is probably what my doctor will do.
The homily in church this weekend was about fearing NOTHING. "Fear not..." will be my mantra throughout this very long week.
Needless to say this message unnerved me just a tad. Okay, I freaked. I hyperventilated and had a slight panic attack and then I cried my eyes out. You see, it's just a little too close for comfort. Currently I have two very good friends going through the big C... well... need I say more?
So it was probably the longest night ever...a restless sleep with tossing and turning, sleepwalking, etc. I woke up at 6, packed Pat's lunch, went for my morning walk, had a cup of coffee, and watched the clock strike 9 before I could call. The nurse told me that there was a slight change in the density of my right breast and they wanted to repeat the mammo with an ultrasound. Okay...now what do I do? I told her I'd cancel my dentist appointment today, but apparently that wasn't needed since I have to wait until July 1st so they can do both tests simultaneously.
In the meantime, I figure I've got a week to pray like heck. I've already called my friend and had it put on the prayer line...not to mention the prayers of my kids and Pat. I called my mom and talked it over with her. I recalled her having a similar experience which proved to be nothing more than a reason to watch it closely...which is probably what my doctor will do.
The homily in church this weekend was about fearing NOTHING. "Fear not..." will be my mantra throughout this very long week.
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Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.' Is. 41:10 I'm thinking if this is what God spoke to Israel that this is who He is, what He is able to do. Praying His peace in the midst, peace in spite of man's spoken words. Peace to your entire being! I'm feeling stirred to pray for you as He leads...
RYC: this blogging world is kind of strange. My kids say I have the same ability to talk it up with total strangers like my father. We've always laughed that he is probably on first name basis with cab drivers in Europe. God has given me the passion of an intercessor and whenever I read someone's blog and He stirs in me I just start communicating like we're old friends. I also keep thinking of an old song I haven't heard at church for a while that starts out, "Fear not, for I am with you, says the LORD"---it's playing in my mind for you.
That is such a great verse to hold onto. I'll pray that this is nothing. I went back a second time, and Deb from Deb's Country Kisses did too. We were both just fine. Praise the Lord. I pray you will hear good news soon. Hugs, Kathi
Please please please keep us updated. Meanwhile I will pray for you..for the peace that passeth all understanding and for it to be nothing. Until then...cling to the certainty that the Lord never lets anything happen without holding your hand through it.
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